And I'd give up forever to touch you 'Cause I know that you feel me somehow You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be And I don't want to go home right now And all I can taste is this moment And all I can breathe is your life 'Cause sooner or later it's over I just don't want to miss you tonight And I don't want the world to see me 'Cause I don't think that they'd understand When everything's made to be broken I just want you to know who I am And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming Or the moment of truth in your lies When everything feels like the movies And you bleed just to know you're alive And I don't want the world to see me 'Cause I don't think that they'd understand When everything's made to be broken I just want you to know who I am (break and solo) And I don't want the world to see me 'Cause I don't think that they'd understand When everything's made to be broken I just want you to know who I am And I don't want the world to see me 'Cause I don't think that they'd understand When everything's made to be broken I just want you to know who I am I just want you to know who I am I just want you to know who I am I just want you to know who I am

1.Dippy "Dad"

She was there to kiss your hurts away She was there to teach you right from wrong She was the life of the party & the rhyme to the song.... To look into her eye's you knew you were home She always made you know you were not alone. She was as perfect as a rainbow could ever be She never knew how much she ment to me... I know we all have our day ... but I honestly believed Grand-ma you would never go away .... The angels called for you to go home .. and Like a butterfly you spread your colorful wings & flew so high into the sky.... Before I fall asleep each night.. I talk to your picture then hug it so tight. Granny I am hurting here I know you hear me I just know you do ... Since you been in heaven have you held my son.. Please hold his hand & let him know one day I will be with you both again.. Granny can you please send an angel to me to take away these tears I cry... Take away these feelings that make me wish I would just die... One more thing granny before I go .... I should have told you long ago.. Your my Hero in many ways.. Can't wait to hug you come some day..

Desperatly trying to make the inner me match the outter me Coming so close to that being a reality , Then having it slowly sift through my fingers like sand within an hour glass Finding hope , to having it empty once again. Desperatly searching for the love of my life , For the angel that put a rythmn within my heart & a faith within my soul Trying to understand why she was ripped away from me , coming up with no reasoning . Hopeing she hears my every I love you as the wind blows near to her . Desperatly trying to make sense of why I was able to feel a life grow within me then before his time he died . Desperatly clinging onto what seems to often to be a life that was doomed at birth . Trying to turn a blackened exsistance into a rainbow , but having the color fade away again & again . Desperatly calling out for help , but noone hearing my cries ... Someone please tell me I wasn't just born to continuiously lose & die .